Our Little Puzzle

We went back to the geneticist today. We haven’t seen her since last year when we received the results of Abigail’s genetic test. After a whole year you would think the doctor would have a lot to talk about and questions to ask, but she did not. Last night before we left, I told Jordan either they would want us to do more tests or they would send us home with no more answers for us, and that’s actually what happened. Basically the doctor told us that there is nothing else she can do for us. Abigail’s genetic test came back with two abnormal genes. Out of those two genes one would affect Abigail’s muscles, however since her muscle tests and reflexes are all completely normal nothing matches us. The doctor even said today that she does not understand how the tests are saying two different things. If this gene is the reason Abigail is developmentally behind she should be failing her tests, but since she is passing everything they cannot explain why this gene is abnormal. It is all a puzzling mess.

This is not the first time a doctor has been confounded by Abigail. We have seen a lot of doctors and many of them scratch their heads at her. She is so far behind in so many areas, but her progress is steady and she is so social and medically great so they cannot pinpoint what is causing her delay. We have another MRI scheduled next week and another EMG to test her nervous muscular system the week after. Our neurologist is retaking some tests we have already done so she can have data to compare and make sure Abigail is developing and is structurally fine.

We are so used to doctors not being able to help us, and not giving us any answers that we no longer worry about it. When we first began this journey I would research for hours and cry when the doctors could not help us. We had a doctor tell us once that Abigail would never develop or outgrow her delay, and that was heart breaking as young parents who were lost in this process. But now I know that doctors do not have all the answers, and that they are not always the best in their field. I take what they say and do what is best for Abigail.

I have learned to trust my gut, and not let disappoint and worry overtake me. I try not to think about planning every detail of Abigail’s future and I am learning to take things in stride. When we found out Abigail would need glasses I was okay with that, but then two months later when the eye doctor then said we would have to patch her eyes too I almost started bawling in the office. How much can one little girl go through? How many tests will she have to endure before the doctors find the answers they need?

I dread going to doctors’ appointments now, and hearing they cannot help us. I dread hearing she is going to go under another test that will just come back normal. I dread Abigail’s future that the medical field will just want to treat her as a guinea pig because she is medical odd, and they love that. But I am so proud of Abigail and no matter what some doctor may say, or what some piece of paper may read, she is conquering things everyday! Yes, on a piece of paper Abigail looks like she cannot do much, but if you saw her every day you could see her progressing.


Getting casted for her leg braces. She hated every second, but we are excited to get her braces soon!!!

She is amazing how she is so determined. Her physical therapist and me always talk about how she wants to do more and how she wants to move and play and grow but her poor little muscles just do not quite know how to work. She is being fitted for leg braces to give her some support through her legs and ankles, and her stander is on the way. With all this support we are hoping we can at least get her up, and if we can get her up we are hoping she will love it and want to do more. It is one baby step at a time, and I love it. I love watching the tiny little victories happen everyday. I love watching her learn what she is capable of, and I love seeing my baby turn into a little girl.

Yes, I do worry about her, but not as much as I used to. Every parent worries about their child. But I know this little girl can do anything she sets her mind to. Will she ever walk? I am not sure, but if she does then we will cry buckets when we see that first step and if she does not ever walk then we will conquer other mountains that come our way. This is how I have begun to think. We have a mindset of what is normal. Babies should hit milestones at certain ages, children should be able to jump and run, and they should be about to talk and express themselves. But Abigail has taught me that if the normal does not happen then you can still survive.


Helping me in the kitchen tonight. She somehow got powdered sugar on her nose and it made me laugh!

Tonight I wanted to bake cookies for Daddy and for our therapists tomorrow for Valentine’s Day. I have always wanted my child to cook with me. I was so excited to have a little girl to play dress up with and cook. But Abigail can’t stand at the counter and help me stir the batter. She can’t sit at the table and place sprinkles on cookies and make a huge mess. But tonight she helped me in her own way. And she made a nice big mess for me! So no while she may never be my sous chef, she is still my kitchen buddy and I love it! She may be a puzzle, but God made a hole in my heart where Abigail fits perfectly!!!


Progress in Therapy

Abigail has been doing some exciting things in therapy these last few weeks and I wanted to share with the readers what was going on. We have been blessed to have some amazing therapists in our lives. Since we still do not have a diagnoses, I rely a lot on our therapists to help me know what I should be working on with Abigail at home. We started therapy when Abigail was just five months old, and I am so glad we started early! A lot of Abigail’s progress is due to her weekly therapy sessions. Right now we do two hours of physical therapy and an hour each of occupational and speech therapy each week. It seems like a lot, but it helps her and she really does enjoy it so I do not mind at all. We will most likely be adding more to her schedule soon too.

In speech therapy we are working a lot on pretend play, like ‘feeding’ stuffed animals and talking on play phones. Abigail is getting so much better at pretend play. She loves to pick up any toy and hold it to her ear to talk to it. Right now speech is simply a lot of playing with toys and different textures. As you play you just make lots of noises and play sounds. We are just trying to get her to make new sounds. She has the ‘b’ sound down pat and can also say ‘m’, ‘d’, ‘y’, and sometimes ‘p’ sounds. It is exciting to see her progressing in her talking every day. Most of the time Abigail just likes to hear her own voice, but it is still fun to hear her making sounds. Unless she is happily screaming away in the cart at Walmart and all the older people are looking at you. Thankfully she is cute so they all just laugh at her.

In physical therapy we have a lot of things going on. Ms. Hallie has been working with Abigail for about a year now, and to see where she was when we first started is crazy! We are working on getting Abigail up on all fours so she can crawl properly instead of army crawling everywhere. Would you know that Abigail actually gets up on her knees for Ms. Hallie! She never does that for me. That’s another reason I love therapy. Abigail works hard for her therapists when she doesn’t always do things for me. Hallie is also helping us get some equipment for Abigail. We are working on getting a wheelchair Abigail can manipulate herself and a stander to help strengthen her legs. It is exciting to know that she could be getting around on her own by the end of the year in one way or another!

Lastly, is occupational therapy. This is the first therapy we started and it is a really fun one! While PT focuses on gross motor skills like sitting, standing, walking etc., occupational therapy focuses on fine motor skills like hand grasp, writing, eating and so, so much more! They prepare children for life skills they will need. We just began therapy with a new therapist. We felt like the change would be the best for Abigail, and I am so glad we did. I was hesitant at first because the new therapist is a young guy, but goodness they work so well together. I have already had multiple other therapists tell me how well Abigail works with Kyle and how much he loves her. He is working with Abigail on her hand control and trying to get her little fingers to work independently and giving them more control. I am excited to see what Abigail and Kyle do as they keep working together. I am hoping she can learn how to feed herself with a spoon.

I am so thankful to have some amazing therapists who love Abigail and who Abigail loves too. When I say their names Abigail smiles form ear to ear, so she definitely knows who they are. I am not sure how much work they really get done with her because a lot of times they talk about laughing a lot or having dance parties, but it is good they have fun with her too. They help her and me so much, and they are truly apart of our family and definitely apart of our story now, as every therapists before them has been! The next few months has the potential to be huge for us! And when Abigail goes to preschool in the Fall she will get double the therapy there, so that’s even more potential for her to improve. I cannot talk enough about how much I love therapy! I know Abigail enjoys it too even though it is tough, she works so hard every session and I am so proud of her.





Seeds of Hope

Gardening is not my thing. I was not born with a green thumb. I have dreams of having plants in my home, but I kill everything. I always wanted a venus fly trap when I was a teenager, so I got one for my birthday one year. I fed it a lady bug and killed it. I did grow some rosemary plants this summer. They were looking great and then I knocked the pots off the windowsill promptly killing those. I do have one plant by my front door that has miraculously not died for six months. I don’t even know what it is, but it’s apparently my perfect plant. I water it when I think about it and do nothing else with it and it’s still growing so I really like it whatever it is.

While gardening is not my thing, it has always been a hopeful dream for me to become a gardener. My dad has always planted a vegetable garden every summer, and I think it’s amazing that such a tiny little seed can grow juicy red tomatoes, and the perfect okra. Plants are amazing things! They start as a tiny seed and with a little bit of water, sunlight, and care they can grow to be ancient oak trees, or food to nourish households, or flowers to add beauty to tables. I know there’s a lot that goes into growing plants that I don’t understand, but the whole process amazes me!

Last year was a season of winter in our household. We had just transitioned to a new home and a new city. We were looking for jobs, a new church, and doctors for Abigail. We were figuring out a new routine and adjusting to leaving behind old friends and finding new ones. It was very quiet and uneventful as the winter season usually is. We were ready for a new season to be upon us, and life to begin again. Jordan would often remind me that ‘this is just a season, Heather.’ Well sometimes a few months can feel very long when you are waiting for things to happen.

But as the new year approached and I began thinking of new goals and dreams I had for 2018, hope came too. Right now this hope is just in tiny little seeds. We have not seen anything mature yet, but God has blessed us with these seeds of hope and I think spring is soon coming for our family. These are some seeds of hope that are being planted in our lives right now:

1.) Jordan thinks he has found a way to begin a teaching career, something he has been wanting for a long time now. He will have to work and study really hard the next few months to accomplish his goals, but if anyone can do it he can! If all works out perfectly he could quit both his retail jobs, be home more, and he would be happier with his career. We are praying big time for the next couple of months to go well.

2.) We had a meeting about Abigail going to preschool in the Fall. I was very hesitant about it before going in, but the ladies at the meeting reassured me about all my doubts and fears, and now I am excited about her starting school. She would have double the therapy time, and be able to socialize with children her age. I just think huge improvements could happen! I’ll be a basket case when she leaves me (it will only be four days a week and half days at that), but I know it will be the best for us both.

3.) We also just met with an equipment guy today, and we are going to apply to get Abigail a stander and a wheelchair she could push herself around in.


This is the stander will we be getting!

I am so excited to get her these pieces because it will help her so much! Our physical therapist is also considering getting her into leg braces to work on strengthening her legs. There will be a lot of changes for Abigail, but much needed changes to try to help her walk!!!

4.) Abigail has been pulling up on everything lately! Oh, she wants to stand up so bad so I know the fight is in her to gain mobility. She is a crawling machine. Her poor elbows stay carpet burned now because she pulls around so much. I invite her to follow me from room to room instead of carrying her, and she is so good about listening and coming with me. She is also becoming a better communicator, and can tell you when she is done or when she wants something. Her speech is even coming along in its own way. Just so many improvements happening almost over night!

5.) There are so many areas I want to help in and there are so many needs I see. I keep seeing little doors cracking open in front of me. I am praying the right opportunity comes along and that I can see it when it comes. Through things at church and talking to my friends and other moms at therapy my eyes are opened to things that need to happen. I am ready to do more, and I now when the time comes I will be ready to respond.


We are both so thankful for little seeds of hope (and some warmer weather)!!

So all these little seeds are being planted, and I pray that they take root and grow into huge blessings. Waiting for a garden to grow is hard, but while you are waiting for the fruit to be produced there are so many things you have to do in between. I know we will be busy watering and nurturing these seeds to grow into beautiful blessings this year. I only pray we are good stewards of the things God is blessing us with, and that the fruit will produce new seeds that we can share with others.

I have learned so much in this season of winter that I know will help as the spring time approaches. God has taught me a lot about trials, temptations, doubts, patience, love, self-control, relationships, and so much more. I am thankful that God gives you quieter seasons of life to allow you to learn the things you need to learn before the busier seasons come. I feel prepared and ready for what the days ahead may hold. I know that I will never be done learning and I still have a lot to work on personally, but I also know that I am not alone. And when then seeds begin to take root and grow you better bet that I will be admiring my life with awe and with a very thankful heart!


Our Tummy Time Adventures

Oh tummy time! I am not here today to write about the benefits of tummy time, or put my two sense into the debate. I know doctors and therapists will say some things and moms will say others. Today is just our story with tummy time, and the progress Abigail has made in her two and a half years of life. I personally have a love/hate relationship with tummy time. It was a lot more hate in the beginning, but that was because Abigail hated it. But today she rocks tummy time like a champ. Actually, I don’t know if you can consider it tummy time anymore for her. It is more like her way of life now. So funny how time changes things!

Abigail has never been a cuddly baby. Even as a newborn we would put her on her little play mat on her back and leave her in the living room while we went to fix lunch or dinner for ourselves. She was just content to lie there and stare at her toys, so that’s what we did. But around a month old she flipped over from her back to her stomach on her own. She only did it a handful of times for that week, but we were so excited for her! Thankfully we have a video of it because no one would believe that knowing  Abigail’s journey now. But she did not start rolling and flipping over again until she was about 9 months old and even then it was sporadic at best. This past summer is when the rolling and flipping became a permanent part of our lives (Abigail had just turned two in May), and bedtime became a thing of the past.


Abigail, 8 months – tummy time was quite a struggle even with our fancy equipment.

We began therapy with Abigail at five months. Of course, her therapists loved and encouraged tummy time. But at this point of Abigail’s life she had zero head control, so tummy time was a struggle. Abigail’s head would just bob uncontrollably until she just could not take it anymore and start crying. Tummy time might have lasted 2 minutes at a time. It was a rough time for poor Abigail. She hated it! She would much rather prefer being on her back or sitting on the couch. We tried everything from boppy pillows, tummy time pillows, toys to try to encourage her on her tummy, but she just was not having it. At this point Abigail was not interested in any toys or her environment really. She has always loved people, so we could make her laugh and giggle and that’s about all she liked to play with was other people.


Abigail, 15 months – tummy time was not as much of a struggle but she still couldn’t lift her head up fully.

Finally, around a year old she had pretty stable head control so tummy time became a little better, but it still was not great. But she could more easily play with toys and tummy time became a little better. It was not until she learned she could have some mobility this past year thought that tummy time became Abigail’s favorite position! It all started with learning she could push on her scooter board.


Do you think she liked her scooter??

Then she learned to push herself backwards, and it was only a matter of time that the army crawl was founded. Today, she practically lives on her tummy. After she eats breakfast until the time she goes to bed, she is on her tummy all day playing, moving, and exploring. It is the best way for her to play for now since she cannot sit up, and the only way she can get around. She loves being on her tummy. You would have no idea that two years ago tummy time was a taboo word in our house – that this little girl you see could not even keep her big ole’ noggin off the ground for more than two minutes.

I know that crawling around on the ground is not the end goal. I know that constantly being on her tummy is not good for Abigail’s digestive system. I know that it would be so much better if Abigail could sit and play. But to see her progress these last two years is amazing. If you had told me that Abigail would one day love being on her tummy I would have laughed at you two years ago. Yes, we have a long ways to go, and we will keep pushing Abigail. We struggled with tummy time for so long, but the therapists kept saying it would help her strengthen her neck and core, and would you know that it took months and months of tears and struggles but her neck and core are so much stronger now. Hard work is hard, but goodness that little girl is a fighter and I am so proud of her. I am proud of her struggles and her triumphs. I am proud that she does not give up. I am proud of her stubbornness and determination. I know we have a lot more to achieve, but it is nice to be able to say that Abigail now rocks tummy time! If she can conquer this than what else is she capable of???


Today, you can barely get Abigail off the floor while on her tummy. She loves tummy time, playing, and having mobility!!

Goals for Abigail

I have mixed emotions about the new year. I love the excitement of beginning fresh and dreaming about what another year holds. But resolutions and goals stress me out. I’ve always preferred calling them things I want to do rather than goals. I know that’s silly and the same thing in reality but the word goal makes me shrink away. Because often I don’t meet these said goals I set for myself, and I hate failure. But every year I list some things I want to achieve in the different areas of my life – marriage, family, children, personal, ministry, relationships, etc. I’m pretty excited about my dreams this year and I am trying to make them more practical to do since I’m a busy mom. I’m not going to share with the world all my expectations for the year, but I thought I would share the ones I want specifically for Abigail.

I know these are lofty dreams, but if you don’t aim high then what do you have to work for? I am still developing plans on how these dreams will be achieved, but I am praying this is another year of big progress for us! Abigail has come so far and it only shows that she is capable of doing great things! I am still learning how to teach her and how she learns best, but we are learning together and that’s fun!! But here are the four goals I have for Abigail this year.


Us from a year ago. Just having a lazy day playing in our bed. Here’s to more family days together!

1.) Monthly Family Date
Of course, I want to date my husband more and we have plans in the works to make that happen, but I think it’s so important to spend time as a family too. I love dinners around the table when we are all home and adding in a monthly family date night will be so much fun!! With Abigail we can’t do as much as we could do with a normal toddler, but I still plan to make the monthly activities fun for us all. January’s family date includes making our on pizzas and decorating cookies. Nothing crazy but we never get to make a mess all together and then we get to pig out on delicious food after it’s all over! Pictures will be coming. This is one of my favorites goals!!

2.) Being more intentional with my time with her
A lot of times while we are playing I pull out my phone and check social media or I watch television while we pass toys back and forth. Even though I am physically present, often my mind is a million miles away. I want to be more intentional with our playtime. Play time is where children learn a lot and I want that time to be meaningful to her and to me. I want her to know she is more important than a mindless sitcom or what so and so just posted.


We love our therapists and we are excited to gain some new ones and find some new doctors!

3.) Find doctors and therapists that can help us
This one has been on my heart for awhile now. We are in a rut with our doctors and it’s time we change things up a bit. No one is helping us, and I believe they have no idea what is going on with Abigail so instead of saying that they are just dragging their feet. So it’s time to find a new neurologist who can give us some direction. And a lot of moms I have talked to have given me suggestions on other types of doctors who could help us too. So this year it’s my duty to research and find new doctors to try to get some answers for my little girl. Also, I want to try to get her into aquatic therapy! I think it would be fun and the benefits would be perfect for Abigail. We are also starting with a new occupational therapist this year and I am excited to see how that helps her too! Just a lot of needed changes happening in 2018.


Fun crafting from 2017. Looking forward to learning more fun things with her in 2018!

4.) Make weekly lesson plans and focus on key things I want her to learn
Abigail will be three in May, and she still has so much she needs to learn. We are so focused on getting her to sit and hold toys that she never hears colors or numbers or animal sounds like a typical toddler. I know it’s a long stretch for her to learn these things, but I want to start introducing them to her on a more regular basis so at least she will be familiar with them. This year I plan to make ‘lesson plans’ of sorts each week so I can focus on different things we want to learn for that week. Repetition is key! Again, I have no idea what I am doing, but I just want to have fun and spend that intentional time with Abigail as I try to prepare her for preschool and kindergarten. So here are some things I want her to learn this year or at least be familiar with.
– Animal sounds
– Identify colors
– learn to color
– Know her age(hold up fingers)
– Know 15 signs in sign language
– Know family names
– Say real first word
– Stack objects
– Sit for 5 minutes
– Bear weight in legs
– Feed herself with spoon
– Drink by herself

Abigail’s Favorite Things

Abigail likes lots of things, and she is always happy and giggling. I could write pages and pages about her personality and things she likes, but I thought I would share 10 things she really loves. Of course she loves her family and being tickled and eating. All things toddlers love too. But here are 10 of Abigail’s favorite things.

1.) Abigail loves to be tossed and turned and flipped and dropped. She is a little thrill seeker. Abigail was born with zero reflexes so she has no fear of falling or being dropped. Plus, she has never fallen over or tripped so I don’t know if she is scared of things like that. I always tell people if Abigail could walk she would be that child who has already broken a leg jumping or climbing on something. She has a very adventurous soul!

2.) Music! This girl loves all kinds of music. We can be watching tv and she does not pay any attention to the show until music comes on. We have listened to a little bit of everything and she loves it all! That’s why I am so glad we found The Music Class. Once a week we get to go and enjoy music with other children. I hope she has some musical talent, because that is one thing I lack!

3.) Chick-fil-a. Well who doesn’t enjoy them some Chick-fil-a? But thanks to G-mama (my husband’s mom) she has discovered a true love of their chicken, fries, and ice cream! That girl can put her away some chicken!!


Enjoying some CFA!

4.) Watching people. Abigail is a people watcher if there ever was one. It’s hard to get her to eat at restaurants because she simply likes to stare at all the people around us. Today in Walmart the lines were ridiculously long and the older couple behind us were so sweet. Abigail loved them! She does not often meet a stranger (well as long as they are an adult).

5.) Chapstick. This girl loves playing with chapstick tubes. We played with one for about 20 minutes the other day. And she likes putting it on, and I am glad in this cold weather!


A girl with a tube of chapstick. She could not be happier!

6.) Emptying containers. Anything she can empty she does. A basket. A bag. A purse. A toy bus full of people. If the objects can come out then Abigail will take them out. She usually helps me clean up too so I am thankful for that.

7.) Wind. I know that’s an odd thing, but when the wind blows in her face she giggles. I know she is loving this cold wind these last few days! The cold does not bother her because she is a little heater, but this wind is perfect for her.

8.) Talking on the Phone. When family calls me I often put it on speaker phone so Abigail can hear and talk too. And we FaceTime my mom almost every day. Abigail does not just ‘talk’ to everyone she screams. You know how older people who talk on the phone like to talk louder like that will help you hear them better? Well Abigail does the same thing on the phone. It is an obvious scream talk. She has also learned to pretend to talk on the phone. She will pick up a toy or a shoe and hold it to her ear and scream into it. It’s so cute! I am glad to loves to talk to people and to herself.

9.) Other people’s pain. This makes her seem cruel, but hear me out. Whenever you stub your toe or knick yourself a little she laughs. I guess it’s that reaction you make that she thinks is funny. Abigail does not know what hurt or pain is so you probably do look funny hopping around or making silly sounds when you get hurt. She loves the word “ouch” too. Like if you’re playing with her and you hit yourself in the head with a toy and say ‘ouch’ she laughs so hard! She is a mess.

10.) I saved the best for last…DOORS!!! She is obsessed with them! All doors. Closet doors. Sliding doors. Bedroom doors. Cabinet doors. Doors on her doll houses. Put this girl in front of a door and she is instantly entertained. She just sits there and opens and closes them. I am not sure what the fun is, but she loves doors. I think she could play with doors all day. A funny story about this for you all. While I am getting ready in the mornings I sit her in front of my bedroom door so she can open and close it and be entertained. Well one morning I was running in and out of the bedroom straitening things up and putting a load of laundry on. While I was out of them room Abigail happened to close the door. This would not be a big deal except that she then proceeded to crawl right next to the door so she could open it. That is when there was a problem. The door opens into the bedroom. Abigail was laying behind the door blocking it and I was on the outside in the hallway. Have you ever had to give instructions to a toddler who cannot really move or communicate? It is fun! I could only get my hand through the door and I didn’t want to hurt her. So I am telling her to scoot back and trying to push her back at the same time. We finally worked it out together and she got away from the door enough that I could make it in. Yes, the adventures we have around here!

Well there you go – a very random list of 10 things Abigail loves. She is an odd child, but we love her so much! I am so glad she is interested in things and has likes and dislikes now. It is so fun to watch her grow up. It hit me today that she is going to be three in about 4 months. Three years old! My little girl is growing up and I don’t want to forget that she loves playing with doors all day long and how she laughed at the silliest things. I don’t want to miss out on her learning to pretend play and figuring out how her hands work. I love these days with Abigail, and I can’t wait to see what else she learns to love in the days to come!


A New Year

Last year I wrote a blog about how 2017 might just be a year of miracles (you can read that blog here). Well, I am not sure it was the miracles we were necessarily looking for, but 2017 was full of some good things! Yes, very small, simple blessings, but to us these things were BIG. Jordan was promoted at work and even though he had to pick up a second job we were blessed financially to finish the year with only one income. We never were scared of where our next meal would come from, or lacking clothes on our back. Sure, money was tight and we could not splurge on the latest, greatest things we wanted, but how badly did we need those things anyway? We found a church home (finally). After searching, we now call Eastwood Baptist home. We are not involved as much as we would like to be, but that is something to work on this year. I retired my old Jeep Liberty I had since I was 15, and now drive a tank (that’s what I call the Expedition because it’s HUGE). I like having the room and being the big guy on these Cobb County roads. And this small town girl actually does not mind driving around here now. I even honked my horn at someone the other day! So watch out world!!!

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Abigail achieved some milestones as well. Again, not your typical ones, but around here we celebrate everything! Abigail can now feed herself, she loves to pull up with her arms, and she can crawl around pulling with her arms so well now. She loves to play with her toys, and loves you playing with her. She has found a new love for Sesame Street. She loves music and laughing. She is getting friendlier around people, and even around little kids! We started speech therapy, which is helping so much. Abigail is learning sign language, and can do about five signs by herself now. She is becoming more and more vocal everyday! She can say, “bye”, “yeah”, “ma-ma”, “da-da”, and sometimes we swear we here a “hey”. She is sleeping in her new big girl bed like a champ, which we are all grateful for. We just switched her to a new OT, so we are excited to see how that will help her. And she is growing up to be the most beautiful blond headed, blue-eyed girl you will ever meet.

Every year I try to focus on a key Bible verse and one word to keep me going throughout the year. My 2017 word was “Press on” from Philippians 3:14, “I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” I just really helped me when things would come up with Abigail or I would get discouraged. Almost like Dory in ‘Finding Nemo’ said, “Just keep swimming.” That’s what kept playing in my head, ‘just keep pressing on.’ God has called me to this life, and He will see me through. But every time I wanted to quit and throw in the towel I was reminded of this verse. I was so helpful! I am glad God impressed it on my heart last year.

So these last few weeks I have been thinking of what my 2018 word and verse would be. I haven’t come across anything, but today I sat down with my new devotional and the very first verse was Psalm 9:10. It could not be more perfect. It reads, “Those who know Your name trust in You, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.” So my word for 2018 is seek. I pray I seek the Lord this year. So often I feel like God is a million miles away, when in reality He is right beside me but I forget to seek His face. I want to seek after my husband, my family, and others in my life. I want to seek God’s face in decisions I make, and I want to seek His love, joy, peace, and forgiveness in my life. So here is to a year of seeking. I am not sure what will be found by the end of these twelve months, but I pray as I blog in the beginning of 2019 that I can say I found some amazing treasures in the Word of God, and in my life that I have taken for granted. I pray this year will be full of blessings and treasures and wild adventures! I love how Ms. Frizzle says it on ‘The Magic School Bus’, “Take chances, make mistakes, and get messy!”

psalm 9-10