Today marks five years that I have been with this guy. We met five years ago as we were both hired to be resident assistants at our school. The volleyball court brought us together that year, and for some reason this popular, athletic boy picked this weird, dorky nobody to spend his forever with. I still do not understand it to this day, but I am thankful Jordan picked me.
We knew we would be married two months after we started dating. That might seem quick (and it was), but I had had a near death experience in the hospital and Jordan, my boyfriend of about 7 weeks, was there for every scary moment. I truly hated that weekend, but I am thankful because I think it made us both realize how we felt about one another. The next week we made a commitment to one another. We said the ‘L’ word that rhymes with dove, and we never looked back.
On June 18, 2013 Jordan proposed at the first place we had ever known the other existed. Back then we did not even know each other’s names and I was just a weird girl with an even weirder testimony, but it got his attention and he started noticing me. The day he got down on one knee and I said yes, God sent a rainbow in the sky. I truly believe it was a promise from God that He would be with this union. I know that is not what rainbows mean, but it was wonderful either way!
Seven months later, the day we had been waiting on finally came. Wedding bells were ringing .on February 1, 2014 It had snowed just days before, but Saturday was beautiful! I really just floated through the morning of getting ready, talking with my bridesmaids, and taking pictures. I was nervous as anything as my dad led me down the aisle to meet this man I had already committed my life to months before. We stood in front of our family and friends to share this commitment with them.
After the reception, as we drove to Atlanta to spend the night in our hotel before catching an early plane, I felt awful. The wedding day should have been glorious and one of the best days of my life, but I was just relieved it was done. I felt guilty. We talked as we drove, and as always my man of wisdom reassured me. This day was not for us, it was for others to see what we had already done. In my heart I was already His and he was already mine that day we first talked about getting married. But today we made that commitment public and we celebrated with family and friends, and for that I was thankful because we had so many who cared about us and loved us.
When I committed to marry this man I knew he would be going into ministry. I wanted that for him and me. We were simply waiting for God to call us to a church so we could begin our ministry. We had been helping at a church together the whole time we dated and were engaged, and now we could do it together at our own place. Job opportunity after opportunity was opened to us. We have done countless interviews and attended churches the past few years. Yet, every door as been slammed in our face. Whether it was because we were not the right fit or because we felt like it was not where God was sending us, we have been told no an awful lot. Both of us have degrees in Christian Studies and both of us are called into ministry, yet we have not found that ministry yet. We pray God has a plan for us. We pray the right doors will open and we pray we will be ready and willing whenever that day comes. But in the mean time we are serving where God has us in whatever capacity we can.
Then six months into marriage God blessed us with Abigail. Our journey with her has been long and hard, but it has also been rewarding and joyful. Having a child rocks your marriage no matter what, but having a special needs child rocks it even harder. Most people I have met with special needs children are older or have multiple children and it is their second or third or later babies that have special needs. But we were hit with it from the get go. We knew nothing about kids so for us Abigail is our normal.
But through it all I have a man that is committed to me. I have a husband who loves me and loves his little girl with all his heart. I have a man who is willing to lead us. He is my strong rock, my wise counselor and my listening ear. I would not be making it today without him. I would have given up a long time ago, but he pulls me through my pity parties and convinces me to keep running the race. I am usually the positive one, but just last night he laid beside me reminding me of all the good in our lives when all I could see was the bad.
We have only known each other for five years, but it feels like forever. Everyday I see little ways that we are becoming one. We are starting to think the same, and know what the other is thinking. We share some similar hobbies now, things I would have never done prior to knowing Jordan. We know what the other one likes and what they do not like. I cannot wait to get to know this man more and more as the years continue. He is my best friend, my love and my other half. I am thankful Jordan asked me to be his. I am thankful I have him. And I will always stand on that commitment we made all those years ago. He is my one and only, my forever and always. I could not imagine doing life without my man right beside me. Thanks for picking me Jordan Lidh!