A year ago a blogged a beautiful story about how God renews us; how He gives us grace and restores our hope. You can read it here. A lot of times Abigail’s situation seems hopeless. Even as I write this we have given up on our doctors. The geneticist just said they could no longer help us, and our neurologist has come to a dead end we believe. We are seeking other doctors to go to, but for now no one seems to know how to help Abigail. It is frustrating, confusion and, as a parent, it makes you feel helpless because you cannot do anything for your child. But a year ago I wrote this, “But these last few months I have come to realize that if I do not think positively about Abigail’s situation, and give her the encouragement she needs than who will? God has shown me that being my daughter’s biggest cheerleader is my calling for now.”
What an encouragement for my soul today! That is why I have come to love blogging because it is like keeping journals. You can always look back to see God’s hand working in your life. So many other special needs parents who are much wiser than me have told me that I am my child’s best (and sometimes only) advocate. I have to fight for her because so often the medical field and even the school systems do not care for your child.
These last few nights that I have been putting Abigail to bed I have been whispering her worth to her. It makes me cry every time. But even if she does not get it I want my daughter to know she is smart. She is worthy. She is beautiful. I want her to know we are proud of her. I want her to keep fighting and stay determined. I want her to know she can do great things. I want her to know as much as mommy and daddy love her there is Someone who loves her even more. I want her to know that God has a plan for her, and she is capable of bringing Him glory even now.
These moments with her mean so much to me. I love being able to stay home with Abigail and have fun with her and take care of her. I am often way too protective and stuck in my ways, but I would not trade these precious days with anything. My little girl has such potential to do great things. My dreams for her may have changed, but my hope in her is higher than ever! Everyday I see her improve and grow stronger. She is understanding so much now and she has the potential to do incredible things in her future.
So even in the face of all we have against us, my hope is being renewed. I am cheering for my daughter and I want her to know she has so many other cheerleaders too! So many of you reading this blog have encouraged me in ways you won’t even know. I just wanted to say thank you for following along with us in our journey. Thank you for all your encouraging comments. Thank you for loving my little girl from near and far. Thank you for being there! And watch out because I truly believe there are some exciting new things about to happen in this little girl’s life!