Three years ago I was a nervous wreck. I was going in the for my scheduled induction. I was happy as a clam that there was no guess work about when Abigail may or may not come. But I had also no idea how inductions worked, so I googled them the night before. Bad plan. I think I read about 10 horror stories before bursting into tears in total fear. Jordan had to steal my phone from me and make me go to bed. Needless to say I didn’t get much sleep that night.
Abigail’s delivery was a lot like her actually. Steady but slow. The room was never chaotic. It was actually quite a boring process looking back. Then the moment came for her to enter the world. I was one push from having a c-section. The song from The LEGO Movie came on, “Everything is Awesome.” I made my own play list and it really is a fun, upbeat song and I love cheesy. I honestly wasn’t listening to anything at this point, but Jordan said that’s what was playing. It was an appropriate song for Abigail. And she entered the world with one tiny wail, and then she was here. All seven pounds of her tiny little self. The only thing I remember was those big blue eyes looking around intently. It’s funny because Abigail’s vision is what started our whole journey into he special needs world, but at that moment her eyes were perfect!
That day was three years ago now! May 8, 2015 at 6:19 PM this girl made her appearance. It’s been three years of having this girl in my life, and I had no idea I even needed her. I didn’t want to be a mom. I still struggle with that calling from day to day. I never dreamed of having babies. But God knew I needed this little girl. He made her perfectly, and blessed us to care for her. It’s been a crazy three years. We have moments of extreme joy and moments of great sadness. Abigail has changed me and my world. She has turned all my plans and dreams upside down. She continually challenges me and shows me my faults and failures. And I love her for it!
I love the way she randomly talks to you like she has so much on her little mind.
I love the way the wind blows her hair and she tries to get it out of her face.
I love the way she thinks she’s so independent and watching her figure things out.
I love that she loves to share and is so social.
I love it when she wraps her arms around my neck.
I love it when she gives her daddy love taps in the morning to wake him up.
I love watching her do new things and being amazed at her progress.
I love it that she loves books and wants to learn.
I love that she’s adorable and literally looks cute in everything.
I love being a girl mom, and staying home with my little one.
I love seeing the excitement in her face when she recognizes what you’re talking about.
I love that my baby is growing up. It breaks my heart, but I am thankful for the progress this year has held. A year ago Abigail couldn’t even move herself. She could barely roll over and had no mobility. She had no way of feeding herself, and she never really made any sounds. She had no preferences. Today she is like a new child. She is completely mobile by army crawling and is even taking steps. She is feeding herself and even learning how to use a fork. She ‘talks’ all the time, and is trying to form words. And that girl will tell you if she likes something or not. Her sassiness is coming out full swing! But that means she is developing normally!!!
Abigail is blasting through goals and expectations. Her therapists are always amazed at what she can do. She is moving mountains, and progressing so steadily. It’s amazing to be a part of her journey and see how far she has come. I made a little video on YouTube about her year this past year. On it, you can see how far she has come, and all the sweet memories from this year. It’s a little long, but if you’re interested in watching it here is the link.
Today starts our year of being three. This year has such great potential already. Maybe this will be the year of a diagnosis. Maybe Abigail will learn to swim in the pool this summer. Maybe she will take steps on her own. Maybe she will sit. Maybe she will form more words and put some together. But I know she will learn a lot. She will go to school. She will make new friends. She will achieve so much! I’m not sure what this year of three will bring, but I’m buckling up for this amazing ride!!!