My Man

Back when we were just children in the stages of liking each other I once told this boy that I thought I could follow him anywhere. After just knowing him for a short period of time I knew this kid could be trusted. Then less than two years later I was looking at that kid right in the face and promising to be his forever until death do us part in front of God and man. I call us kids back then because even though it has only been three and a half short years I feel ancient. We have always been two mature individuals, but the last few years has aged us.

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My handsome groom on the day I married him! I am so thankful he picked me!

I met Jordan at college when we were both resident assistants. I caught his attention with my weird testimony and he caught mine when he paid attention to my amazing athletic skills on the volleyball court. I am kidding about the athletic skills by the way, but when there’s a cute boy out there who is willing to laugh at you then you go play whether you stink or not right? Well at least he saw something in me, and to this day I am still not sure what that is. Our relationship moved fast. We lived on a tiny school campus and within two months we knew we would be married. I had a near death experience and that boy I only had been dating for maybe six weeks stayed by my side in the hospital. It truly was the experience that changed our relationship I think.

But here we are almost four years into marriage and he is my best friend. I have learned a lot about him and a lot about marriage. Things like we cannot have the same blankets and that he is truly a nerd on the inside. Things like boys and girls are very different. Things like what unconditional love truly is, and how it feels to be in a partnership with someone. Things like how selfish I am, and how Jordan never cries even when Mufasa is plummeting to his death. And so many more things I could not even begin to list.

This man is loyal through and through. He works so hard for us so I can stay home and take care of Abigail. But even after a long day of working two jobs he still comes home and spends time with his family. Jordan is not a man of much emotion, but that little girl

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One of my all time favorite pictures of these two. They used to look just alike, but he just adores her!

of his brings out the worst in him, as he would say. I have seen him cry over her (which is a truly rare event). I have seen him laugh and smile like he never does with anyone else. She may not always reciprocate the love, but I know that man would move mountains for his little girl if she needed him to. Jordan is our strong rock, and when my emotions are everywhere I know I have him to steady me. He is my encourager and my personal comedian. He can make me laugh more than anyone.

Most of all though Jordan is my race buddy. The Bible tells us we are in a race. In Hebrews 12 it reads, Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.” And I am thankful I do not have to run this race of life alone. I have a partner every step of the way. He has experienced the same exact things I have and we have held hands through every disappointment, every failure, and every step along the way. I am excited to continue to run along beside him. Sure we will see a lot together – the good, the bad and the ugly, but I am so excited to grow old with my best friend. I once told him I could follow him anywhere, and that’s what I plan to do. I will follow him as he follows God. And wherever God may lead us we will be together. 

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HOME

Home is where the heart is.

Home is where I am with you.

Home is where your story begins.

It’s good to be home.

There is no place like home.

Home Sweet Home

There are hundreds of different quotes about home when you search on Google or Pinterest. It’s hard to pick just one. There’s a sign on Etsy I’ve been wanting to buy for our office that reads, “It’s so good to be home.” Home: it means so many things to so many different people. If you surveyed a hundred people and asked them what home was to them you might get a hundred different answers. Some answers would be positive and some would be negative depending on their history and what experiences they have gone through.

I have been blessed to grow up in a good home. My mom and dad raised me in a home of love and support. My dad worked and my mom stayed home with my brother and myself. The thing I remember most about growing up is family dinners (we always sat around the table together to eat the dinner my mom fixed is every night) and Friday nights we always went out. It was usually something simple like eating at a family restaurant and playing putt putt or going bowling. But I still remember those evenings out all these years later.

I moved out of my parents’ house after I graduated high school and lived on campus at my college for 5 years. 3.5 of those years were spent in the girls’ dorm and 1.5 of those years were spent married to my college sweet heart. For the first 4 months of our marriage we actually lived in the girls’ dorm because I was the resident director. It was out little joke that my husband got married and moved in with 60 girls. But the apartment was completely separated from the girls’ rooms and the only thing Jordan shared with the residents was the front door.

Then my husband and I moved down to an in campus apartment and continued to work at our alma mater for a year before having our baby girl. We then transitioned to a mobile home owned by my grandparents until we could find a more permanent residence. This permanent residence ended up being my husband’s childhood home. His mother was remarried in September of last year and we moved into her house in October. We were wanting to move to the area anyways so the timing could not be more perfect and we did not even have to house hunt. It was a blessing for us for sure!

So now we have been in this home for right at a year now and it made me think about home. Not a house where we live but home. I asked Jordan what he thinks home is and he said wherever you and Abigail are. It made me think of Lilo and Stitch when Stitch says, “Ohana, Ohana means family and family means no one gets left behind or forgotten.” My family is my home. We may move every year to a new home, but if I’m with my family then I am home.

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Moments after getting to the apartment from the hospital with our newborn baby. We were home and a family of three!!

I like making my house pretty. I love waking the aisles of Hobby Lobby and dreaming on Pinterest about what projects to do next. I already have plans for every room of the house and whether we ever get to them or not I will keep dreaming about redecorating. I also enjoy a clean home. No, my home will never be spotless. It will always be a bit cluttered with way too many things and the table will always have yesterday’s mail on it, but I like knowing the house is clean. Like bathrooms are wiped down, floors have been vacuumed and mopped. It feels good to live in a clean house. And while I spend a lot of time each week cleaning, doing laundry and decluttering my house it still isn’t home unless my family is there. I am very much a home body and so is my husband. On any given evening or weekend we will be home watching tv while Abigail wiggles around on the floor. And I am glad we like being home together.

Home is a hard thing to define. It is not about the physically house you live in and how nice or not so nice it is. We lived in an old trailer for a year filled with roaches and water leaks, but we still called it home because that’s where my family was. I am thankful to have a nice house now, but no matter where God leads us as long as my husband is with me I will be home! I would say kids too but hopefully one day we will be empty nesters and our children will make homes of their own with their spouses.

I want my home to be a place of peace and rest. I want my family to want to come home because it is a shelter from the crazy world. I want them to be able to find contentment at home. I want our home to be a place of love – unconditional and sacrificial love. I want our family to grow, not only in number but spiritually and emotionally as well. I want us to be unified and open with each other. I want this home to be welcoming to others – to anyone who steps over our threshold to feel relaxed and welcomed in our home. I want this home to be filled with laugher and memories. I want our home to be led by Jesus first and then I want us to follow Him whole heartedly. I want Jordan and I to grow in love and wisdom as we raise our children in this house. And I want our children to want to come home and know they are loved in this home.

Home is…

A little girl’s laughter after being tickled by her Daddy.

A kiss goodbye as a husband leaves for work.

A gentle look from a mother as her child plays on the floor.

A child’s curiosity over some new object she found.

A husband relaxing on the couch.

A wife calling everyone to the dinner table.

A family snuggle to end the day.

A home is…

That stain on the carpet from a child kicking over your drink.

Running around in your underwear as you get everyone ready.

Burning the toast because you got distracted playing.

Having too much on the to do list but still choosing to play or nap with the baby.

Making up with your husband after telling him to pick up after himself for the 100th time.

Quiet evenings with your spouse when the baby goes down to sleep.

When the tiredness sets in because it’s midnight and that baby won’t go to sleep.

Changing countless diapers and keeping up with poops.

Home is a thousand little moments that make life perfect.

Life isn’t always great and happy and lovely every single moment. I get tired, frustrated and worried, but with my family beside me I know we will face all life holds together. My family is my safe spot. They are my home sweet home.

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Our Simple Life

I thought I would share what a day in our lives look like. Of course each day changes and you cannot schedule a toddler every second, but on average this is what we do. I love my little buddy, and we are both going to miss each other when she goes to preschool next year. I think my mama’s heart is not going to be able to handle it. But I know Abigail needs to see more people than just me everyday, and I know that I need to be away from her too. But for now I treasure each day I have to spend with my little sidekick.

I wake up around 8 and wait for someone to start stirring. Abigail is normally up around 8:30 or 9. We are late raisers and I am okay with that. I know one day we will have to change our sleeping patterns but for now it works for us. Abigail is happy in the mornings, and we usually snuggle. She never pees at night so we have a very wet diaper when we go in morning. My mom has always said this will make it easier to potty train and I hope that is the case. We have a long ways to go before potty training can start, but maybe one day that will make it easier.

We go downstairs and fix breakfast for us both. She plays with her toys while I get everything together. I eat yogurt and granola. She eats a scrambled egg and cereal and maybe yogurt if she feels like it. She is usually pretty hungry, so she eats well. From there we snuggle and open the blinds in the front room. I have been trying to get her to learn to pull the cords to give her a job to do each morning. And then we get dressed and ready for the day. I lay her down in her bedroom with toys and music while I get ready and straighten up or put a load of laundry on. Then we get her dressed and that crazy blonde hair brushed the best we can.

Then depending on the day we try to go somewhere each morning. Mornings are Abigail’s best times. On Mondays we have physical therapy. On Tuesday’s is Music Class. On Wednesday’s is speech and occupational therapy. On Thursday’s she stays with grandma while I go to Bible Study. And Friday’s we normally have free so we go to the park or to the grocery store. One way or another we get out of the house for a bit, mostly for mama’s sanity. I like having somewhere to go each day.

We return for lunch and we usually watch TLC while we eat our sandwiches and fruit and goldfish. Then the afternoon fussiness begins. We try to have wiggle time and snuggle time. But at 2 it is nap time. We settle down with a good book or two and then it is off to Mommie and Daddy’s bed for a nap. We have to hold her down still so she does not fall of the bed, but it usually only takes her about 20-30 minutes to fall asleep. Some days I nap with her. Some days I use the hour and a half to clean or blog or just do nothing. It just depends on how motivated I am that day.

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I usually have to wake Abigail up because she would sleep the day away and never go to bed at night if we let her. She is out of it when she gets up. It takes her a good 20-30 minutes of snuggles to finally wake up. Those are some of my favorite minutes of the day. By then, if Daddy has been working all morning, he is home. So it is his turn with Abigail while I get dinner ready and the house straightened again.

We eat together at the table and Daddy normally gets her all fed while I clean up afterwards. She is the slowest little eater but she eats well! In the evenings we try to take a walk whether in the neighborhood or at the local outdoor mall 5 minutes from our house. We do some exercises and just are together as a family, watching TV, tickling, playing, and wiggling.

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Wrestling with Daddy before bath time.

Then before you know it it is bath time and snack time and snuggle time. Around 9:45 or 10 we head to bed. I know that is late but we honestly still are not close to going to sleep yet. This is why we sleep in. I hate the late bedtime but for now this is where we are. If anyone has suggestions about how to get a toddler to sleep faster please let me know! Her therapist and pediatrician have both said this may be a result of her finally gaining freedom and mobility. If you just learned to move you would want to wiggle all the time too. But we are trying to teach her that bedtime is bedtime, and give her tons of time to wiggle during the day. So, at 10 I read her a story or two and then lay down and hold her again. Bedtime takes longer to go to sleep. It normally takes between 45 minutes to an hour and a half. She is usually asleep by 11 or 11:30 and then it is my turn to sleep.

There is not anything exciting about our days. We like the simple life. Of course, days change and we do other things in between the usually stuff. Whether Grandma comes for a new adventure or we go to a doctors appointment that day. Or on days we miss therapy because our therapist cancel, we go to the store or just explore around town. Abigail is pretty chill, so it is easy to take her places. These next few months have lots of new adventures in store as fall festivals approach and then we have a big family wedding coming up. But all in all it is just the three of us living life with each other one day at a time. I love my simple life and I am glad I get to share it with my family!!

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Me and My Man

Today marks five years that I have been with this guy. We met five years ago as we were both hired to be resident assistants at our school. The volleyball court brought us together that year, and for some reason this popular, athletic boy picked this weird, dorky nobody to spend his forever with. I still do not understand it to this day, but I am thankful Jordan picked me.

We knew we would be married two months after we started dating. That might seem quick (and it was), but I had had a near death experience in the hospital and Jordan, my boyfriend of about 7 weeks, was there for every scary moment. I truly hated that weekend, but I am thankful because I think it made us both realize how we felt about one another. The next week we made a commitment to one another. We said the ‘L’ word that rhymes with dove, and we never looked back.

On June 18, 2013 Jordan proposed at the first place we had ever known the other existed. Back then we did not even know each other’s names and I was just a weird girl with an even weirder testimony, but it got his attention and he started noticing me. The day he got down on one knee and I said yes, God sent a rainbow in the sky. I truly believe it was a promise from God that He would be with this union. I know that is not what rainbows mean, but it was wonderful either way!

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Seven months later, the day we had been waiting on finally came. Wedding bells were ringing .on February 1, 2014 It had snowed just days before, but Saturday was beautiful! I really just floated through the morning of getting ready, talking with my bridesmaids, and taking pictures. I was nervous as anything as my dad led me down the aisle to meet this man I had already committed my life to months before. We stood in front of our family and friends to share this commitment with them.

After the reception, as we drove to Atlanta to spend the night in our hotel before catching an early plane, I felt awful. The wedding day should have been glorious and one of the best days of my life, but I was just relieved it was done. I felt guilty. We talked as we drove, and as always my man of wisdom reassured me. This day was not for us, it was for others to see what we had already done. In my heart I was already His and he was already mine that day we first talked about getting married. But today we made that commitment public and we celebrated with family and friends, and for that I was thankful because we had so many who cared about us and loved us.

When I committed to marry this man I knew he would be going into ministry. I wanted that for him and me. We were simply waiting for God to call us to a church so we could begin our ministry. We had been helping at a church together the whole time we dated and were engaged, and now we could do it together at our own place. Job opportunity after opportunity was opened to us. We have done countless interviews and attended churches the past few years. Yet, every door as been slammed in our face. Whether it was because we were not the right fit or because we felt like it was not where God was sending us, we have been told no an awful lot. Both of us have degrees in Christian Studies and both of us are called into ministry, yet we have not found that ministry yet. We pray God has a plan for us. We pray the right doors will open and we pray we will be ready and willing whenever that day comes. But in the mean time we are serving where God has us in whatever capacity we can.

Then six months into marriage God blessed us with Abigail. Our journey with her has been long and hard, but it has also been rewarding and joyful. Having a child rocks your marriage no matter what, but having a special needs child rocks it even harder. Most people I have met with special needs children are older or have multiple children and it is their second or third or later babies that have special needs. But we were hit with it from the get go. We knew nothing about kids so for us Abigail is our normal.

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But through it all I have a man that is committed to me. I have a husband who loves me and loves his little girl with all his heart. I have a man who is willing to lead us. He is my strong rock, my wise counselor and my listening ear. I would not be making it today without him. I would have given up a long time ago, but he pulls me through my pity parties and convinces me to keep running the race. I am usually the positive one, but just last night he laid beside me reminding me of all the good in our lives when all I could see was the bad.

We have only known each other for five years, but it feels like forever. Everyday I see little ways that we are becoming one. We are starting to think the same, and know what the other is thinking. We share some similar hobbies now, things I would have never done prior to knowing Jordan. We know what the other one likes and what they do not like. I cannot wait to get to know this man more and more as the years continue. He is my best friend, my love and my other half. I am thankful Jordan asked me to be his. I am thankful I have him. And I will always stand on that commitment we made all those years ago. He is my one and only, my forever and always. I could not imagine doing life without my man right beside me. Thanks for picking me Jordan Lidh!

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20 Facts about Our Family

I have been blogging for over a year now, and I thought it was time to write a little on the lighter side tonight. Here are some random facts about our family of three. Thanks for for your support and for reading along!!

1) Our last name always throws people off. I am forever spelling it for people over the phone. L-I-D as in David- H as in Henry. I had no clue how to say it when I met Jordan in college. I had to ask him. I always remembered it because as my husband Jordan would lead me. Jordan sometimes will tell people it’s spelled L-E-E-D. It’s a tough one for only being four letters. But we answer to anything, mostly we are the ‘Lids’ and that’s ok.

2) We rely a lot on our extended family. We are blessed to have two families that truly love and support us 100%. They help us out with Abigail by watching her, loving on her and providing for any and all needs she may have. They provide a roof for our head and often treat us to dinners or new clothes. I tell Jordan all the time how spoiled we are. But we are very thankful we have great families that love us and want to take care of us because so often we wouldn’t be able to do it alone.

3) We would love to own a dog. I think we would both lean to a lab of some kind. But the house we live in has no yard, and I couldn’t do that to any dog much less a bigger dog. But maybe one day because having a dog would be so fun and I think Abigail would grow to love him even if she would be quaking in fright at the beginning.

4) One of mine and Jordan’s dream anniversary spots is Washington DC. We truly are simply and nerds at heart. But we went on a trip to the capital just months after we were married with a group from our college and we loved it!! We would love to go
back one anniversary and explore on our own.

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5) I like to sleep in and recently Abigail’s schedule has changed so she sleeps in until 9 most mornings and as long as Abigail is sleeping in I am too. I know people say you should wake up before your kids and get things done or have me time, but I prefer pillow time.

6) I recently got a library card in our new county. I LOVE to read and this is a whole new world of books to read. I found I love historical fiction, and now I stay up late reading. Maybe that’s why I like to sleep in.

7) I secretly love trying to rock Abigail asleep. She has never been a cuddly baby. She hated being rocked and being placed in a carrier even as a new born. But now I try to keep her up later so I can rock her to sleep and hold her for just a minute before putting her in her crib.

8) Abigail is getting huge!! She is outgrowing her crib, her seats, and her clothes. She is heavy and I cannot carry her as long as I used to. She would be so tall if she would stand up. It’s hard to believe how big she has gotten.

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9) We eat the same thing almost everyday. It’s just easier because I l ow what I like and I know what Abigail likes. She loves fruit and carbs and so do I. I literally eat a whole box of Suddenly Salad all by myself at lunch. Yes, carbs are my friends. I’ve considered dieting many times, but you only live once and I love food!! I don’t think I’m disciplined enough to diet.

10) I have never been a runner. In college I tried to ‘run’ in the evenings. I have started the Couch to 5K about 4 times, and never finished. Running just isn’t my thing. But I love to walk. I like my walking buddy and we spend a lot of time walking in the park and in our neighborhood.

11) Speaking of walking – I usually walk so I can get miles and catch Pokémon on Pokémon Go. My husband got me hooked when the app first came out last year. And I haven’t looked back. I love playing!!! And the best part is that it’s like mine and Jordan’s thing to do. We have had many a date night going around and catching Pokémon. And it’s a nice family outing where we can get out and do something together. So call us nerds, but it’s one of my favorite things to do.

12) Jordan and I always try to spend time with just us everyday. It’s tough because he is on a weird work schedule. He works retail and his hours change from day to day and he always has different days off. I can never keep up with it. But we like to watch our tv shows, movies, play board games, and play minecraft. Yes, I did say monecraft. It’s another great game to play. Our land is called ‘The Loveshack.’ Jordan would kill me if he knew I told you all that, but I named it for us. I love spending time side by side building a fantasy world and killing zombies with him.

13) Sometimes I don’t do all Abigail’s exercises with her. Sometimes I forget. Sometimes I just want to snuggle with her. But our favorite thing to do is in the evening we lay down side by side and we just laugh and tickle and snuggle. It’s wonderful and always a highlight of my day!!

14) I’ve always wanted to be an elementary school librarian. In college God called me to ministry and I changed my major to Christian Studies. I then got married and we had Abigail. I now stay at home full-time with her. I know I am called to ministry and I am searching for what God would have me to do. But for now my ministry is to our daughter and the families we come in contact with everyday.

15) I love that my husband literally beams when people say Abigail looks like him. He eats it up!!! He is the best Daddy and he loves that girl so much.  His love for her makes me happy. Because I know she will need her daddy as she grows!

16) One of my dreams would be to adopt a special needs child. I don’t know if it will ever happen, but we are both open to adoption and I know children with special needs need to be loved too. Maybe one day my dream will be a reality but for now I will keep learning all I can about caring for special needs children.

17) My favorite room in the house has always been the bathroom. It might be a weird pick, but I take my showers at night at the very end of the day. It’s just my time to unwind and not have to worry about a single thing.

18) My favorite thing about being married is that I get to live with my best friend. I love that even after just 3.5 years of marriage we are pretty good at knowing what the other one is thinking and feeling. And we always think the same way about big decisions (or at least we have so far). Is our marriage perfect? Not by any means, but we know we are together no matter what and I am thankful to live life with my best friend!!

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19) Yes, we would love to have more children. People ask us that a lot. Of course, we are also scared to have more. We have no clue what Abigail’s quality of life will be and we are scared to have another child like Abigail or in even worse condition than she is. We have been told the chances of us having another child with special needs is slim to none, but obviously no one can guaranty anything. But maybe when the time is right, God will bless us with a second child!!

20) I love my family!! Family is very important to me. I think God designed families to honor Him and he used a family to bring salvation to the world. I am thankful my husband picked me five years ago. I am thankful we had our beautiful little girl ,and I can’t wait to see what God has in store for our family as we continue to grow in the years to come!!